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risarodil:

That’s got to be the goal: to destroy less and create more. To increase awesome and decrease suck.
~ Hank Green

risarodil:

That’s got to be the goal: to destroy less and create more. To increase awesome and decrease suck.

~ Hank Green

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— 12 hours ago with 6475 notes

spartanrace:

On the eve of the Boston Marathon, we at Spartan Race, along with the country, pay tribute to all the victims and survivors of last year’s attack.
Pictured are athletes and citizens who lived through the events and won’t let tragedy grind them to a halt. This series shot by Robert X. Fogerty for Dear World captures the resilience of those affected that can’t be dampened. Please visit their site to learn more about these people’s stories and pay tribute. 

Boston is as strong as community as the world has. We are proud to be part of it. On Marathon Monday, we will be there and along with the rest of the world, we will be watching a city recover as one.  

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— 6 days ago with 29730 notes
flinch-nerds:

This tweet is so important to me

flinch-nerds:

This tweet is so important to me

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— 1 month ago with 349459 notes

heynowaimee:

actual-rapunzel:

Let it Go (Africanized Tribal Cover) Alex Boye Ft. One Voice Children’s Choir

THIS IS AMAZING

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— 2 months ago with 151723 notes
"You’re allowed to want to kill yourself,
but you’re not allowed to do it.
You’re allowed to fight with your mother,
but you’re not allowed to to leave her crying on your bedroom floor.
You’re allowed to miss your ex boyfriend,
but you’re not allowed to say the scars all over your arms are his fault.
You’re allowed hate the girl who almost got you suspended,
but you’re not allowed to tell her that the world would be better off without her.
You’re allowed to stand on the edge of that bridge,
but you’re not allowed to jump.
You’re allowed to be mad at the world,
but you’re not allowed to blame it for the state you’ve put yourself in.
You’re allowed to be sad,
but you’re not allowed to give up."
it’s going to be okay  (via pessimistiic)

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— 2 months ago with 48308 notes
The infamous penis cake thanks to Swag!

The infamous penis cake thanks to Swag!

— 3 months ago

Shit hit the fan back in August. I took defensive measures. Shit just exploded and became real. I’m glad that I took those measures, but I’m sad that it has come to this. :/

— 5 months ago
"Breathe. It’s okay. You’re going to be okay. Just breathe. Breathe, and remind yourself of all the times in the past you felt this scared. All of the times you felt this anxious and this overwhelmed. All of the times you felt this level of pain. And remind yourself how each time, you made it through. Life has thrown so much at you, and despite how difficult things have been, you’ve survived. Breathe and trust that you can survive this too. Trust that this struggle is part of the process. And trust that as long as you don’t give up and keep pushing forward, no matter how hopeless things seem, you will make it."
Daniell Koepke   (via sleepyreverie)

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— 6 months ago with 15819 notes

It’s a good feeling when my boss tries to work with my schedule so that we can work together next year. It makes me less scared about being successful. :)

— 7 months ago
"I’m going to tell you what a demon once told me: It is okay to want your own happiness. It’s okay to care about yourself the most. It’s okay to do what’s healthy for YOU. When someone hits you, it’s okay to hit back and then ask them what the hell they expected. It’s okay. You are not obligated to sit there and smile and swallow every bit of shit everyone heaps on you. You are more than furniture, you’re more than window dressing, you’re not their shiny toy. You’re human, and you have the right to say “That was shitty of you”. You have a right to say “Let me feed that back to you; tell me, how does it taste?” You have a right to protest your own mistreatment and set boundaries for respectful interactions. The rest of the world doesn’t realize you have this right, and they will act offended and appalled when you exercise it, but it is yours."
SonneillonV (via v-meilynkim)

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— 7 months ago with 151867 notes
Things I’m Doing/Getting Once I’m Done Painting for the Summer
  • Go to a spa / get my nails done to get rid of all this paint
  • new running shoes
  • celebratory meal/night
  • new phone screen
  • new phone case
  • fix the trunk of the car
  • fix the shock or whatever is making the front tire wobble
  • new tires and maybe brakes / brake pads
  • maybe detail the car to get rid of the spilt paint
  • new cleats
  • new clothes
  • contacts + new glasses
  • Kindle? Nook? Kindle Fire? something to read
  • bluetooth for the car so I don’t have to keep making CDs (just ordered)
  • bike + lock
  • pictures/posters/decorations for my room
  • ultimate gear?

Then the rest of the money goes to savings, Roth IRA, bills, rent, tuition.

:]

— 7 months ago with 1 note

It’s 3am and I’m not sure why I’m awake. Why I’m thinking about work at 3am is weird.

Today, well, yesterday technically, I was asked by bossman if I wanted to be an RC. If you asked me before the summer, I would have said hell no without hesitation. I even told myself that i wouldn’t want to do sales or marketing again. Now, I’m not so sure. College Works has definitely changed my life.

I have been with the company since February. Back then, I was ambitious but hesitant. I struggled with marketing and sales for months. I dreaded work every time I had to do something related to it. A month or two went by and I really contemplated quitting because I wasn’t making much progress.

I remember looking at sales stats before production training in May and shitting bricks. I was really hard on myself and comparing myself to the other interns. I had $12k in sales for 3 months of work while the top person in the division was past $50k. I knew that I couldn’t start production until I hit $25k and that seemed like it would never happen. During training, the top person in the room was from NorCal at $80k. I really thought that I sucked at this and that it was a complete waste of my time.

Then something happened. I remember that I was out marketing one morning after school was finished and I came across this woman and her golden retriever. She saw that I was having a awful time and just talked with me. She told me about her dog and how it had this healing aura and that I should really ask whatever higher being that I believe in for help and she did that for me too. When she left and I kept walking, I asked the universe for help. I was desperate. I was at my lowest point. There was not harm in it.

Something clicked soon after that. I’m not sure what it was but I caught fire. I was desperate with trying to get in contact with a knock back so I went to their house. Got the estimate set up an went marketing down that street. Got a couple of solid leads (2 of my biggest clients). Needless to say, that kicked it off. I had a $11k weekend and did $20k in two weeks. Holy crap was I stoked on life that this was going to be worth it.

Production came and I was on fire. I was booking a bunch of work and my crew was pretty good. Screwed over another intern in the worse of ways and I’m still not proud of it. Go my crew switched up and was just rolling. Sales started dying down and production was going well plus I got to kick back more. I was running a great business.

Here I am not, not caring at all about sales and struggling with production. I don’t care that I lost my crew. I don’t really care that I’m probably painting my last two (now maybe three) houses solo. I don’t want to deal with painters. I just want to deliver what I promised my clients and go home to see my family and friends that I’ve been blowing off for 6+ months.

Now, bossman wants me to join his team next year as an RC. I like the fact that I’d be teaching interns that would most likely care rather than flaky painters. I like that I will be developing leadership and managerial skills quickly. I like the $20-$30k potential salary while I’m in school.

But really, do I want to go through all of that? Do I want to give up hanging out with my friends? Do I want to cut back on ultimate? Do I want to go through the struggle? The highs and lows? The recruiting? The weekend trips and meetings? Will it all be worth it? I’m sure that it will be as long as I maintain a decent team. I’m not afraid of hard work but I’m also not a fan of the work that I will have to be doing. But that’s how I’m going to grow: doing something that’s scary, new, and not ideal. When am I going to have this opportunity to guide and manage again?

I guess the real dilemma is whether I want to choose my short term happiness for my long term well being. I wish bossman asked me this a month from now.

— 7 months ago with 1 note